Ah Kong.....miss u sooooo much.

My dearest ah kong came to my dream last nite....i dream that i went back to our old house at kg melayu flat and i forgot the keys suddenly i realise the door was open bit...when i push the door...ah kong is there with lotsss of stuffs he bought as usual...for us to makan. I in tear..i shouted ah kong, u are here n forgot key la..he just smile. Help me to check my bag. When i wake up  , i really in tears .i misss him  ....hope to see him in the dream again.

Long Silence....Long stories

(My poor Amanda hand in bandage with needle inside for 3 days...really pity her when in pain)


I did not update my blog for about two weeks. My little Amanda was very sick and almost hospitalise for operation. We all are so worried, sad and tired during this two weeks....with tears and sweats.

During the one week school holiday, my two sweeties was down with flu and cough so as
usual I bring them to Klinik Kesihatan and due to the doctor careless , she did not check their throat even they claim pain. She only give them flu medicine and a gargle medicine.Brenda recovered and Amanda too but off and on she told me that still ' pain pain' throat so I thought that due to the hot weather few day and continue with flu medicine for her and herbs too.

On 22nd March night, my little Amanda did claim that she has sore throat and her neck was pain.. I gave her paracetamol and flu medicine and told her will her to see doctor early morning but when she wake up on 23rd March morning, she was in high fever and her neck was so pain till she can't move her neck, I quickly rush her to clinic but after the antibiotic for 2 round (morning and afternoon) she still very pain with high fever. I knew something is wrong and Hubby quickly drives us to child specialist and the doctor said her lymph was swollen and change a stronger antibiotic for her. On the second day, my poor girl vomit badly and still very pain and fever still there. I quickly called doctor and again bring her back to that clinic. On the third day morning, I called the doctor and told him that my girl still in pain and again he ask us to bring back to clinic then I feel that is not right because every time bring we have to pay hundred over ringgit and my kids still in pain.

We quickly rush her to another doctor that recommend by my hubby friends. The doctor said he need to know what make her lymph swollen so need to rush to hospital for ultra scan and the report showed that her cervical lymphadenitis shows liquefaction. This doctor refer her to mouth, throat and ears specialist that need to give her antibiotic in jab every 8 hours, hope that the antibiotic works or else need operation. She suffer and cry badly due to the pain of neck and the needles make her cry till 3 days continually nightmare. My heart so pain and we even have to wake Amanda and Brenda up in 2am to sent Amanda for jab in hospital because we prefer she rest at home. Amituofo...after 6 rounds jab(3 days) and 5 days oral antibiotic she recovered.

On the 28th of March, she even sits for exam with needle in her hand and still on antibioctic. She pass her exam with flying colour with 3 papers 100, and 2 papers 99.(Amanda,Mama so proud of you) Her headmaster allow her to go home for rest when I send 'jie jie' to school and pass her MC to school. She told her Headmaster : 'May I try to sit for exam, please.'There are few studends who are not well too so the school will arrange that they will sit for exam then go home early once completed the papers.

Tsunami Again !!!

The first tsunami that we experienced was in 2004 when we are still in Penang. I feel the shake when in my 26th floor Condominium but at that moment still don't know what is happening. My house fan are shaking and me too, after few seconds all my neighbour are running out from house towards down stairs. With a few months old baby and another about one years plus toddles alone at home.(Hubby working) How can I run using staircase from 26th floor ? I choose to stay ...in my heart if there time nobody able to escape...so brave of me (ha ha).

Yesterday, again heard the news of tsunami and again place that we stay 'Sabah' high risk area of tsunami from 6pm to 12am yesterday. Just call hubby to return home as soon as possible after work (just in my heart nor matter what happen , just hope we are together) and to cancel our Kudat trip on Saturday (sob...sob).

Amituofu !!! pray for peace of the world.

What make me so brave today....????

(This is not the real scenario, of course i did not take her car picture) ....give her a chance lo...

In my girls school, all parents who wish to fetch their kids without come down from cars have to go through car line up base like 'Mcdonald drive in system' very convenience.Of course line up base on first come first serve. Some parents even have to come as early as 11.15am to get front role and wait for school dismiss at 12.50pm. I usually reach around 11.40am.

Recently, there are few parents who came late and 'jump queue', they will come beside or even in front of your car and slot in when car is moving. Isn't is too much ???

There is a car already did this several days and all parents already noticed but dare not do anything only willing to gossip behind.

Today this car cut the line and park in front of my car. I don't know from where i have this 'power' come down from my car and go to her car...in a polite and nice tone."Excuse me Miss, You need to line up and you already cut queue." without a words thanks or sorry....she just answer 'then you move your car and park in front of me la..' OMG !!! she don't know behind my car there are around 30+ cars who line up under the sun and waiting too.

After this incident, I so scare that why this lady so unreasonable.....she might be school VIP members wife or '(Gangters)Kongsi Gelap' members wife....am i going to be in trouble. I put my fingers together and pray...AMITUOFO !

Sorry, i did not means to interrupt you 'cut queue' but hope that you can understand the feeling of queue under the sun for hours since 11.40am and suddenly you cut the line when the school bell ring.

甜与温馨的感觉

Penang 'Wan Tan Mee' - from my dearest 'Ah Yong Peh Leh n 'Peh nin' both of them drive to town to buy this for my kids so that we can bring back to Sabah. Thanks and I really very touching. Each time i open the packing to cook ...very touching. 感觉到很甜与温馨的感觉.

Thanks again dear 'Peh Leh' for the ...'Kek Hwa'and the tradional 'windy oil'...i really very touching and i really in tears when i see all this in Sabah. The feeling been cares are really, really sweet. 很甜与温馨的感觉.

My girls achievement and My feeling......

My princess Brenda already started looking forward her fourth monthly exam result since her principle announced will be distributed last Monday, this time she feel more excited and confident. Last Friday after school when she was line up waiting dismissed bell ring,I saw her hand holder a piece of paper and she waived to me and smile happily...ha ha I knew she wish to share something that make her soooo happy. When the bell ring, she rushed to me and said : 'Mama I told you I can get number 6but you don't believe..I got it, I got it.' I quickly told her that not I don't believe just Mama don't want you to feel pressure.' I told her that i knew she always try her best to do well, Mama already feel very happy and proud of you.'

Ha..ha of course I was so happy and proud of my girl yesterday (like all the mother)when I see she is sooo happy. She got 6/52 in class and 14/311 in whole standard 1.I just happy to share every sweet moment with my sweetheart and will be there for her whether it is sunny or rainy. Mama love you.

After wrote this, I saw this article from Lee blog (a SAHM too)writing her feeling and her journey of teaching her kids. It is my feeling too...and just paste here some for sharing.....
我想没有多少个父母，
会不想自己的孩子考到优越的成绩，
让自己的脸上贴金的吧？！
我真的也有这样的私心。

我希望两个孩子每次评审都考到好成绩，
其中一个原因是想证明，
我没有出去赚钱，
每天二十四小时呆在家里“守”着他们，
是为了亲自教育、教导、
督促他们的学业和品德教养，
而不是像他们所说的在家里
“叹世界”、做少奶奶...
孩子的成绩可以“算”是我的成就，

但是，
我会尽量让孩子们在没有太大压力的情况之下，
（完全没有压力又实在不行啦！）

考试 again....and some feeling

Princess Brenda fourth monthly exam will start on 16 August to 19 August. As usual mama will be more 'kan cheong' than kids...end up very tired lo..我很累， 很累。 累得不知道自己在忙些什么？but very I am very happy and satisfied mentally because I am FTSAHM(full time stay at home mother)...I really enjoy every moment with the kids, play with them, jokes with them, chat with them, angry with them, 'kan cheong' with them, we do it together...I don't have this opportunity during my childhood so I want my kids to have me ALWAYS in their childhood.

Everyday when I reach Brenda school with bento for her during rest time. I will said in my heart :'Amituofo,感恩!'Guan Yin Pu Sha',感恩!Hubby.. I wish to thanks HUBBY for giving me a chance to be SAHM.，“老公，辛苦你了！”
This feeling was stronger when I see my little princess smile happily when she see me and enjoy the food I bring.

I knew this feeling because I did FEEL it happily when my 'Ah Kong' visit me in school during my rest time with food. 感恩! Ah Kong.

No Title....just to realise my emotion after been "BULI"

Worst direct seller in the world that i even meet.(Huh...i really really hot already!) I had meet lots of direct seller who approach me ...they are very professional and understanding even though end up I did not either buy or joint the membership.

I meet this husband and wife 'somewhere' and with the name card given I knew that they did direct sales and at the same time I do looking for that brand product too. I did not decide immediately so as usual they will follow up. End up i did not buy because i bought other brand that I more confident and economic.

Lately, they sale another product that about academic, i heard before and as courtesy and to pleased them i spend about half an hour in their house.I told her will discuss with hubby because the cost not cheap range RM600 to RM1788. After discuss with hubby, we feel that that is not urgent and important things and we need to study what are the content of the system more detail.

On Monday morning, i meet the wife, as usual she follow up on me......(below are our conversation)

She : Hello, how yrs husband decision ?

Me : (Try not to turn her down), My husband heard it before from friends and we need time to consider. I really hope to find few friends to reduce the cost because we still bit doubt on the content of the system. We hope that can find few friends share the cost and try first.(She told me that RM1788 are 5 sets and if 5 person share will be cheaper and 1 set cost RM600).

She : (Suddenly her face change).....Nor matter you who you wanted to buy from...you want cheap, want quality and doubt on the quality. Buy package la...RM1788 , want to wait for 5 person very difficult wan.(the tone are not friendly anymore)

Deep in my heart (Thanks God...let me see her 'true face' before i buy anything from her.). I really wish to let her know.... Hello Friend, RM1788 not RM17.80 loh and with this attitude, RM17.80 'put' i will not deal.忍!!!!!

Huh....Ahhhh....feel better now.

I roar like TIGER ......

Yesterday, I really get mad and 'roar like tiger' due to my kids bad habits always never keep and clean up their stuff after play or use.

I already allocated a place for them to put their stuffs but still messy...i really cannot 'tahan' and ROAR

Last nite, my little sweeties greet : 'Good nite mama' and i pretend angry and just don't want to answer. I ask Papa to be middle man to tell them than Mama very sad because they don't love mama anymore that me upset.

They quickly apologies and say 'sorry mama, I love u' ( I already melted but still keep pretend angry to give the some lesson) I ask hubby to get a maid to take care of them who will not ask them to do homework, bath or eat and some more will
help them to keep stuffs.Oh no ! after i finish my words ...my two sweeties cry like babies keep saying....'i don't want maid , i want mama'

Ohhhhh! sorry sweeties that mama make u sad, i quickly hug and kiss them keep telling them mama loves them more than everything.

Sorry sweeties....mama will not make you two cry sadly like this again. LOVE U FOREVER....................a guitly mama after ROARING like TIGER.

Not in the mood....

It is school holiday...i got plenty of back dated news to blog but just not in the mood. I really need a rest and get tired easily. Lazy worm all over my body....In my mind i got lots of pending tasks. Lots of thing to think, to solve..........

Brenda even feedback to me that they miss bedtime story. Sorry sweetheart...mama will try ok.

Brenda wish to join the astro card making contest but hubby cannot on leave and don't know how to drive to the location even now having problem to submit the form because no idea where is the location stated ?Ah yoo....

My girl bedroom....

My kitchen.....

Brenda emotion also not well..she not really adapt to the new environment, school, friends, house, everything...she feel unsecure.
and lots more thing in my mind.....i just need a break.

忍～忍～忍～

My neighbours....grrrrrr
Park their car in front of my house like that 's their car park, sometime even block our entrance. too much....
They are staying opposite my house. 忍～




Another worst...dry their blanket at my backyard like their house. She is staying beside my behind house. The husband worst throw all their rubbish behind my backyard while their doing gardening. I witness that...忍～

Since I'm moving so just 忍～忍～忍～ if not must give them'some colour or else they thought I am black and white' he he

沿途有你们....的祝福

家，是人最原始、最自然的避風港
每當你走得累了，做得困了，
最想回去的地方就是溫暖的“家”
每當你在外面受到傷害時，
家 永遠是你的避風港
它不會嫌棄你，
反而義無反顧的庇護你。
在家 你不需要有任何掩飾
完全釋放自己 無拘無束
而家人更是你生活的動力。
然
如果某天 家 已不再是你的避風港時
那你該何去何從？
I like this and copy from other blogger as sharing....

心有說不盡的千言萬語..我一一的說出來....huh ! really release很爽
Today, finally I inform all my family members about our decision to move to SABAH. Every words that come from your all really make feel better and packing with mood. Thank you, thank you for wishing us all the best.
谢谢你们的祝福,心裏一股暖流湧上頭來，很感動，真的很感動,温馨.

怒....

Due to I only work hallf day so I will fetch my two little princesses daily after school. 治安真的是太坏了

Today I got some matter so I have to reach Princess Brenda earlier to settle so I able to park my car at so call VIP lot(near to the school gate)黄金泊车位置.I knew the will be lots of car park beside(block) me. No choice. So after the office matter as usual I fetch my princess and ready the move the car but been block by another car, I saw she bring a kids in the car and still chat there with other 'siu nai nai' so I just ask in a very polite way."exuce me, can you move your car please" you know how she answer "Next time if you want to go off fast then don't come so early to park the car inside and I still have two more kids to wait."...WHAT IS THIS ?? 火冒三丈；怒发冲冠；杀气腾腾OK I don't want to be like her ###... and I told her nicely that. "I need to come here early today because got office matter.'She also get shock because she knew that she is rude and unreasonable and thought that I going to 'hentam' her back but I did not.


She work in a After school centre and I don't know who are the few unluckily parents that send their children there with this kind of personality 'teacher'. Good luck!

List 10 things that make you happy (列出十项另您开心的事）

~ List things that make you happy (列出另您开心的事）
1. 家人平平安安，身体健康
2. Princess Brenda and Princess Amanda用功读书，听话
3. 老公健康
4. We can settle down and have a home sweet home.
5. I can find a happy working place.
6. Hubby can find a Good company , good boss of course good pay job..he he
7. Can travel oversea ....带 Rou & Qing 香港迪斯尼乐园
8. My sister call me or send me a mail to let me know where is she ?

没心情过年

还有几天就过年,今天 hubby mc 回来告诉我 he get chicken pox. Brenda and Amanda also fall sick with flu and cough. Myself going to be...very tired. Hubby has to cancel his very important apointment in Sabah tomorrow too. ???? How ? are we going to stay in KL for this Chinese new year???

Me too very down...the working environment change still make me in 'culture shock situation'. Still try very hard to adapt. Sometime just feel like give up but I will try to see first....I never feel so tired before and that is ton of work to complete and things all in mess that I never expected. Cross finger hope that things will get better.